Right now seems like the worst possible time to start writing a blog. Life is not exactly peaceful and calm at the moment. My husband has just been diagnosed with stage 3 cancer and we have just begun the fight of our life to beat this thing… all while homeschooling and managing the household with seven small people underfoot.
But somehow I feel like I need to. Perhaps it is just to put my thoughts down on paper and clear my head… perhaps it is to encourage someone else out there struggling with life’s unexpected twists and turns… perhaps it is just good therapy for me… whatever the reason, here I am.
There is just so much unknown in my life right now. How will the chemo go? Will he survive? How will the children cope? How can I support both my husband and my children through this experience? Why did this happen? How did this happen? So many unanswered questions. I learnt a very long time ago that it is not always wise to ask the ‘why’ question, and it isn’t always possible to answer the ‘how’ question either.
Sometimes all we can do is take the next step. Hang the next load of laundry, hug the next child, read the next story. Take the next step even when I can’t clearly see the path and just trust that the One who hung the stars in their place and told the rivers where to flow, will lead and guide my steps.
He will show me the way. He will walk with me and hold my hand when the way forward is murky and unclear.
First posted August 11, 2019
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